I am sitting in "my bed" at "home" ie. my parent's house, and it is a really strange feeling. It has been a long time since I have slept in this bed, and the last time I did, I wasn't alone.
Having Karsten gone sinks in in new ways every now and then...
The window is open, with the fan blowing in cool September air. I'm sleeping in one of Karsten's shirts that smells like our home--a smell I can't describe. Have you ever tried to describe the smell of home? It is just something familiar...
And now I feel slightly torn between what is more familiar, what seems more like home?
Home is a process. For those who grew up in the military, home is not a geographical place. For me, it is, I think.
Home is the river.
The smell of the Virginia woods.
Creeks.
Christmas brunch with sisters.
It is mix-matched sheets.
The garden.
Drinking wine before dinner...
But now, we are developing a new home. Home with Karsten is...
homemade dinners.
praying before meals and forgetting to bless the food
road trips
our screened porch
and long hugs.
I wish I could gather my thoughts tonight and... describe this feeling of disconnect. I am so happy to be here with family, but the most important part of my family, isn't here. I long for him. And I worry about him. I wish we were here together.
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Life at Moody
So, I realize that I kind of fell off the face of the earth for the past few months. But, I'm back!
SO much has happened since April and my last post.
I got married. Moved to Montgomery Georgia. Met lots of great Air Force friends there. Moved to Valdosta Georiga, where we are now stationed for the next several years. Karsten and I had about a month together to get settled into our new house--see Facebook for pictures, and I'll try and post some more on here soon.
Karsten is now in Texas for the next 2 months for his first training school in the Combat Rescue Pipeline (called Indoc) If you're interested in what it is like, watch "Surviving the Cut" on Discovery 10pm Wednesday nights.
Oh there is so much to say, but I should really just post pictures and tell our stories that way.
I'm thankful for:
~Christian wives in Karsten's unit !
~A job in the ER starting in October
~Going home to Virginia in under a week
~Supportive family and friends, and prayers for me and Karsten during this time
~A great home!
SO much has happened since April and my last post.
I got married. Moved to Montgomery Georgia. Met lots of great Air Force friends there. Moved to Valdosta Georiga, where we are now stationed for the next several years. Karsten and I had about a month together to get settled into our new house--see Facebook for pictures, and I'll try and post some more on here soon.
Karsten is now in Texas for the next 2 months for his first training school in the Combat Rescue Pipeline (called Indoc) If you're interested in what it is like, watch "Surviving the Cut" on Discovery 10pm Wednesday nights.
Oh there is so much to say, but I should really just post pictures and tell our stories that way.
I'm thankful for:
~Christian wives in Karsten's unit !
~A job in the ER starting in October
~Going home to Virginia in under a week
~Supportive family and friends, and prayers for me and Karsten during this time
~A great home!
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