This time in my life has certainly be characterized by waiting. Waiting on God. Waiting on direction. One of the things I have the hardest time doing is waiting. I always want to be moving. Pressing on. Doing. When I have an idea, I want to go for it and make it happen. Make it happen--that has been my mindset for so long. But God wants to teach me how to rely on Him, wait on Him, and let Him make it happen.
He has proven Himself faithful over and over again in my life. But I, in my impatience and selfishness, still try to take over and do things my own way.
Right now I am waiting to take NCLEX. I am trying to focus my energies on studying for this big exam, while not worrying about my lack of job. It is hard, because I hardly have the money to pay for gas and my cell phone bill. But once again, God always provides just what I need. I do not know what job he will provide for me. In my limited vision I can't see how I will be able to get a decent job for only 3-4 months. Again, I am back to waiting and trusting Him. He does have something good in store for me.
I am so thankful that God has blessed me with a partner in life who knows Him, loves Him, and desires to follow Him in his ways. Karsten has been a huge support and anchor in my life these past few weeks. We have both gone through times of frustration, exhaustion, worry, and fear, but God has used us in each other's lives to provide peace, confidence and re-direction to our Lord. I could not be more thankful for him. I know that God is at work in our lives and in our relationship and I am excited about what lies ahead for us
