i wish i could get my thoughts straight
i wish i could tell you what i really feel
what i really meant to say.
i wanted you for so long
and then one night,
you slipped away.

and the feelings come and go
in this moment i feel like holding you forever
i feel so distant from your embrace
from your soft words of comfort and encouragement

it may be gone forever.

and then some days i want only to move forward
to leave all hope of you behind
i dont know what to do.

i have written you letter after letter
and left them unsent
i dont know what is right
cause nothing feels right

i've prayed
night after night
that i would know my own heart
and that i would know His

but it is all out of control
and i am tired
and i cant think straight

it may be gone forever.

Sin Nombre

I heard about this independent film on NPR last week. Then, I went to see Slumdog Millionaire (great movie by the way, if you haven't seen it you should) and saw the preview for it.

It's a film about immigration to the US across Mexico on what is called the "Devil's Train". It's not a true story, but the Film's Writer-Director, Cary Fukunaga, went and rode this train to get the experience to write the story. Ever since I read the novel "Tiujuana Straits" I have been interested in the stories of immigrants and their journeys through hell to come to the States.




I have high hopes for this movie, but I guess we'll see...

Deliver me out of the sadness
Deliver me from all the madness
Deliver me courage to guide me
Deliver me Your strength inside me


All of my life
I've been in hiding
Wishing there was someone just like You
Now that You're here
Now that I've found You
I know that You're the One to pull me through

Oh, deliver me

Jesus, Jesus how I trust You
How I've proved You o'er and o'er
Jesus, Jesus precious Jesus
Deliver me
Come and pull me through
Come pull me through

A Little Bit of Spring Break

Even though my spring break was a total of 4 days, we did get to go camping. And it was beautiful weather!
Britt and I went to visit Nikki in North Carolina, and we decided to drive to the beach to camp...






We found a nice trailer park with an ocean view to camp in. We were the only tent campers...it was great.











Yay camping!








It was a little chilly, but the beach was beautiful.

Snowboarding

The Perfect day for snowboarding. We got 4 inches of fresh powder, and it was a beautifully cold day.



Courtney and I on the lift.





Josh on the lift. Love this picture.


Some of the group skiing. snowboarding



The view from the top at dusk. So beautiful. I love Harrisonburg.


Josh (looks like a terrorist), Karsten, Me and Jared.