i wish i could get my thoughts straight
i wish i could tell you what i really feel
what i really meant to say.
i wanted you for so long
and then one night,
you slipped away.

and the feelings come and go
in this moment i feel like holding you forever
i feel so distant from your embrace
from your soft words of comfort and encouragement

it may be gone forever.

and then some days i want only to move forward
to leave all hope of you behind
i dont know what to do.

i have written you letter after letter
and left them unsent
i dont know what is right
cause nothing feels right

i've prayed
night after night
that i would know my own heart
and that i would know His

but it is all out of control
and i am tired
and i cant think straight

it may be gone forever.